too heady today

the in between lines

are only for me

i love you, i do!

i think i am just thinking too much again

i get really heady some days and caught up

within my little foolish world under the grey

but yet, it helps me to think that this small part

is out in the world, so i can look it in the eye and say

"VAMOOS!" and it will fly away

i was just going to write something about God, but

God, what are you thinking? do you think? or are you just.

just there. my eyes grow tired because i have hardly cried

i really wanted to cry today after sunday school but i couldn't

because i was angry, and my angry wasn't a beautiful one,

it was one of hurtful intent and prideful walls

(i was thinking something as i read over this line and now i am jealous,

but we are all jealous so i guess i am not alone in this sin, this is how we-)

again, i am too heady but i need to be to finish this project

i hate this, i hate it when i have time because i have a PROBLEM

with procrastination. HELP ME GOD GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

thanks, i love you.

all you can do is try to know who your friends are

as you head off to the war