clothes, styles, identity

i realize

that i have over 40 tshirts in my room currently

and that's only tshirts .

i am partially proud and partially disgusted with myself .

do you notice people only go "whoa, that's a nice shirt"

when it's different ? like , you see an a&f sweater not a lot of people would say

hey , that's a nice sweater . i mean , the quality is amazing , the prices soaring

and yet when you find a piece of scrap from a shaggy vintage store

throw it on with something funky , someone goes up to you and says

the words that make you smile

it's weird , why do you say "thanks" when someone says your clothes are nice

i mean , they are your clothes , but it's not like you designed them ,

nor did you sew them , or stitch them piece by piece

what a conundrum

unless of course they mean that you pieced it together

so the colours beautify each other the materials rub

your appearance well uplifted by simple things gone haywire

and all the while we just want to be naked

and not judged

i am going to go

and return some clothes

to their rightful owners

and figure out with to do

with the rest of my things .

ridiculous

ridiculous