new years (P11)

new years (i)//

it is another year,

another three, six, five of do not fears

a reset button pressed by one

resolutions: pointless unless done

what is this counting down?

shouting, singing, counting down!

cold and drunk we're dounting cown (?)

sad and stricken, i feel no different

if everyday were a new years

fervor burns with zeal and fire

people gather with desire

three, six, five, begone, my fears!

that i would sleep and rest my head

more perfect than that of morn

that i yawned long and drowsy

sun in face and out of bed

then how alive would we all be?

one two seven four five six three

another year of no more fears

sober tears and unclogged ears

hallelujah everyday,

in my quiet i rest and pray

today would be for work and play

growing, changing, in this way-

-becoming fully what we are

for this our Father in Heaven art

earnest working for our home

take me! hold me! i am your own.

clarity//

love those that they don't, and those that won't do.

devotion//

i have been the rocky ground

i have been the choked-by-thorns

i have been on the fence

i have been in the dark masqueraded as middle ground

i have been lying

i have been dirty

i have been wrong

was blind, but now i see.

fashion blogs//

i read a lot of fashion blogs lately

or, skimmed through them

it is so interesting to see these creative people

piece such ordinary picks into an extravagant work

and then i got really excited and wanted to do that too;

DIY shirts, buttons, high heels; hair; make-up; accessorize; belts, buckles, charms, silver, glitter; glasses, sun-glasses, ray-bans; purse, bag, leather, snakeskin; wool, cotton, cloth, sewing, thread, needle, buttons; stockings, socks, bare feet, panty-hose, fish-net; painted toes, french manicured fingers, nail polish, bottom coat, top coat, clear coat, sparkles coat, filing, trimming, cutting, smoothing, shining, stars; bracelets, chunky, thin, chain, buttons, necklaces, chunky, thin, chain, buttons; earrings, dangly, hoop, expensive, cheap, studs; thrifted, guess, diy, armani, value village; puffy sleeves, tight sleeves, loose sleeves, no sleeves, shrug, shoulders, knees, toes, my fair lady, buttons, buttons, buttons: RAH RAH RAH!

but: in the end it is all in vain,

these things blow away, and who is looking?

cunning is the whisperer, he entices and dresses as white.

new years (ii)//

it's new years every day

there is a difference

between saying it, and moving;

and there is a difference

between today and tomorrow's today.