I am so distracted by thoughts of retreat and also a recent testimony by my parents...
I am so amazed by God!
Over the mountains and the sea,
Your river runs with love for me
And I will open up my heart
And let the healer set me free...
I am actually enjoying homework right now-
I am too tired to give myself pressure and instead I am learning
Thank you God, my math test is postponed which relieves my burden
And reminds me that you are even in the smallest things
Life is so miraculous!
We fight chaos everyday, we take things for granted-
I never realized how much I accept what I know (language, my body) as all there is to know... but there is so much to learn, a vast expanse of more and more and more we will never be bored- but this works only if we actively seek it, seek joy...
I want to write about retreat SO badly because I want to remember everything
I want to cherish all these moments- mealtime conversations that warmed my heart and playing word games that really brought people together- God works everywhere. One of the biggest lessons I learned was this, "I am speaking to you, my child." Even his silence overflows...
BUT I must use my time wisely, and anything I need to write God will bring it to my mind
So, off to the wonderful world of biology.
I hate how in school, we get lost in the boredom of it and lose the fun...
I realize that I always want to reform the way we learn so we know why we need to know this and actually engage in learning instead of being so passive... I read about schools around GTA that are unconventional and my heart soars that this is real... I always think of jobs as for money, but I just ask that I have a job because I love it and know why I am doing it and that I am making a difference.
Today was so brilliant! My dinner was so, so delicious; the morning was calming...
I want to learn to love my school friends more and see them as God sees them. My love for them is so limited, many times I feel like I can't relate to them and everything is shallow-
But there is hope because God is alive.
I realized that I've been trying to reason that God exists and is good,
But really that is not my job: He will prove it himself as I follow Him...
I want my life to be used well! That is- my days to be used well.
Sometimes we forget- our lives are made up of our days...
What is "osteopathy"? GOOD QUESTION!
Now go do your homework, Evelyn, so you can find out...
God, I have so many things I want to do this week and weekend,
And all of them are for my own benefit/enjoyment...
So... yeah.
OKAY, BYE! Goodness gracious, Evelyn, leave now!
(...Okay).
2 comments:
I enjoy your blog so much. Thank you for writing often.
thaks for the comment; just thought you should knw my dad called me the next day to made sure there was no grudge and we talked about it; and he wanted to make sure i understood what he said and didn't want me to be so upset: ) the end.
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