paper, plastic, wonderwalls

(a lot of things don't make sense : but to my heart [the.mostdeceitfulthing]

this is what i need to say , and this is the only way to say it .)

take my words and let them be

if you are my wonderwall

then i expect for you

to catch my fall, if at all

you mean to be mine

please tell me ; or don't

i'll be scared

don't be scared , just because

nothing will ever by okay

because okay is normal

and only God is normal

and we are not God .

God is God and that is that .

we're weird , and i like it

i hate it i hate it ; "i hate that i love you"

what a song , what fake words

i love that i don't like anything - one

i love that i do

i love that i can love

i am nothing .

just dust on the side of the road

beside the puddles of gasoline and paper on fire

burning plastic away at the wake of the mourn

during the crying days when the earth is dry

save for my salt ; and for Your light

it seems we have been taken by blindness and disease

please stop and stop and stop and stop

i can't ; SHUT UP JUST SHUT UP "DAMN IT"

i don't have the right to damn , to judge , to say this

the notes play on and i can't see , ever

at all , nothing since the last autumn i was alive .

just pretty words and no eyes to look at

they look behind me : politician and businessman

lovers intertwine and i can't bear planted lips

my heart aches and i need a doctor

less i fall

and never get up

the job of the heart is to bleed

the job of the lungs is to breathe

my job is to do both

and do so until i can't

this is the

end

memories, movies, music

on memories

hold on the the memories

while they still can slip in and before they slip out

hold on tight before they are a bit too far to find for your fingertips

you can barely remember faces

only voices and they weave in and out

state of unconsciousness

state of craze ; state of mind .

on movies

every time i watch a movie with my family

flicker of lights on repeating faces defects

more talk comes from the couches than the tube

" i love special effects, of course this doesn't happen

in real life, but you know, the special effects are good "

shhh , dad just watch the movie we know

" guys, what's happening? oh! i get it .. wait, if he's

the father, then who's the son? wait.. what? i don't get it "

shhh , mom just watch the movie you'll get it

" I KNOW WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT !

BE PREPARED ! I KNOW IT ! I WON'T TELL YOU ! "

shhh , josh just watch the movie we know you know

and yet i talk the most of all .

on music

it's a flow of words in another language

it's angry and sweet tastes of tangerines

on a winter snowfall and melon slices

on a summer pinic and it just works

speaks to you no matter who

where what you are .

and all you have to do is scream along with them .

Joe

today i saw a snail on a white pole

outside of my home , and i saw it was

beautiful .

--- when i came home from piano lesson

--- it was inside my house , and i named it

--- joe .

how can i have so much love ,

for such a small snail ?

joe is a boygirl and is a mom

but i don't want any babies

just joe

COFFEEHOUSE IS OVER

DONE . AND BIG YES TO GOD .

thank you thank you thank You .

piano is quite

good , just a

bit nervous .

"haikus are easy

but some don't make any sense

refrigerator"

- threadless .

wonderwall - oasis

- backbeat , the word is on the street that the fire in your heart is out

- i don't believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now

- after all , you're my wonderwall