ever seen (P2)

put down your expensive champagne
and dance for a sober second
it's the best you've ever seen
one moment
a kiss of smiles
a shadow of better times

it's haunting can't you cry?
this burden we carry
can we go further by ourselves?
we, you see, are made for each other
you and i and them; intertwined
and beautiful
the best i've ever seen

the top (P1)

A thousand million colours
And races
And names
And faces
And people from places
All over the world;
filled empty spaces.
---------- A thousand million colours
---------- And white man
---------- And black man
---------- And in-between man
---------- And not-at-all man
---------- United they stand - men.
A thousand million colours
All with one goal
One common purpose
The same ambition
Identical Design;
identical desire.
---------- A thousand million colors
---------- All with one voice
---------- One common language
---------- The same untamed tongue
---------- Communicative
---------- community.

A thousand million colours
Thought they were the best
Thought wicked was right
And that right was a jest
Arrest this jest,
And digest tis 'best'
So what's left?
Not right.
And they were not right indeed.

So the thousand million colours
Built brick by day
And drank by night
Diligently not-sober
Maybe since October
And now it's already almost over
---------- A thousand million colours
---------- Provoked the wrath
---------- And in the cool of the day
---------- They paved a path
---------- Armageddon's on its way
---------- Wrote their own Revelations.
A thousand million colours
Made by One God
felled by one man
Was even - now odd
The great renowned ban
History is quite repetitive.
---------- A thousand million colours
---------- All came crashing down
---------- From their great tower
---------- Into the town
---------- Falling from power
---------- fleeing from Grace.

A thousand million colours
Now a thousand million tonuges
Now scattered; divided by unity; gone!
The old and the young
Filled empty spaces, above the ground
Though cursed by their best
Is blessed by a chance
Second to right
Is now what's left.

my world right now

i hate being in a world
where i can't talk to strangers
and if i help someone , they'll be surprised
how cold of us , lighten up .. like a lamp .
it's not that hard , just find your button
baby let it burn .

one
in the morning , we put boobert & joe's world in the sun
and left them there . when we took them back
boobert was dead . and i was so so sad . i couldn't believe it .
one moment , he was so ALIVE and MOVING and SEEING .
i held him . and the next he's lifeless , dead weight , meaningless .
i cried so so much because life is so precious and those who choose
to take life away doesn't understand ! they are loved .
i hope everyone knows that when they die , someone cries .
whether it be your mom , your best friend , the earth , the sky , God .
boobert died and i cried . and now i am okay , but i just ..
it's no one's fault but it's everyone's fault . he melted into himself .
he died BLIND and it's so sick it had to happen that way .
sorry boobert . i really loved that snail , you know .
i really loved him and now he's dead . if he wasn't mine i wouldn't care .

two
i realize that the people i own are the best people in the world (mine)
if they weren't mine i wouldn't love them . before , i was so sad
that if i wasn't my parent's child they wouldn't love me . but they love me
because i am theirs . isn't that amazing ?
my dad was walking in a store carrying his laptop and i was in the car
and i saw his retreating back and i realized I LOVE THIS MAN !
he is MY dad . and my MOM . and my BROTHER . i am fortunate to be able to love .
some guys think crying is weak . this makes me sad . I AM SAD ! ( i quote myself)
but john chu cries so i think that is good . (manly tears , of course)

three
i went to a thrift store today and bought almost new chucks for
$2.50 (i know. what?)

x

tomorrow is school . i want to be a nerd . i hope to have good teachers
but i know i will learn how to learn if i have bad teachers . i wish i could go to africa now .
i wish i had a good camera . i wish i was a good singer and a good guitarist
so i can be a singer/song-writer , like those cool people with myspaces & youtube accounts .

but God gave me this body and mind so i am perfect as i am
thank God for that . i hope my husband likes me .