falling out

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i am falling out of this world

and falling into Love.

i hope i get pushed off the cliff

i hope i dive for the thousand foot bottom

i hope i scream all the way and keep my eyes open

i know i will shatter

i ask for it, because this temple is not enough

to hold every ray of light, every glittering word, every shining eye

i ask for my walls to spill over with holes

so his spirit can burst forth

i want to die to this

i want to break this up

i want to run away

to where He is, and take everyone i know (and don't) with me.

[ :( ]

i am falling out

am i not connecting?

yesterday i suddenly couldn't spell

yesterday i suddenly couldn't speak

yesterday the silence was awful

yesterday i laughed but it came from my throat

yesterday i grew a little, but i am sad today.

i am joyful always (God of glory, Lord of love),

but today? i am sad.

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i am afraid i won't get a husband

i have this fear of choosing someone

only because i have no one.

now that i said that, i am not afraid.

YES! Victory? keep me clean.

[ :'( ]

i miss rachel & crystal

the two at the same time

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i love tc media & worship

[ :\ ]

my dad is at willowcreek right now

take me there, daddy! i miss him a little.

but i know he will come back.

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let's end off happy

fare thee well, love of mine